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LEAVE SOCIETY

LEAVE SOCIETY

LEAVE SOCIETY

LEAVE SOCIETY

disconnect. leave the internet
I now realize that Ted Kaczynski was onto something. I believe that technology and specifically the computer and smartphone have caused create corrosion to society and the people that live in it. The internet has disconnected more people from eachother than its brought together. I wonder what would have happened if I had grown up in a pre-internet time, what would I be like? I think I would be better, I think everyone around me would be better. I think it would be best for my mental health if i disconnected from the internet but I have honestly grown addicted to this glowing box on top of my desk. The computer may as well be my God because I am constantly serving at it's altar, unable to leave it. I want to leave my desk and do something that will make me happy but I don't even think anything can. The internet is a more addictive and brutal drug than the harddest of narcotics. Even now after leaving discord cold turkey I feel like I am relapsing. Every day I check my goddamn phone a hundred or so times, I'm like a dog hearing a dinner bell. Jump dog, good dog. I have had enough. 5/9/2020

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I am searching my soul for passion but i find nothing, all my goals never come to fruition because i'm too depressed to do anything of value anymore. I just want to make a hit song, i want to be someone. I want people to ask me "What I've been up to" and not stand there with absolutely no reply because in reality I've been up to nothing. I honestly wonder what IRL people think I do all day. I spend all day on goddamn discord and youtube. The small bits of productivity that i have are updating getgle but I have shitposted so hard that i could never show getgle to anyone in real life. I want to be someone and I want to improve myself but I dont know how. When nothing is important to you it's hard to quantify how to create a world for yourself. I just look at a piece of paper or document and nothing comes out. I pick up an instrument and nothing worthwhile comes out. A normal person would just say that making music isn't for them but I can't do that, deep in my soul I want to make an album but I can't. I want to graduate but I can't, I want to socialize more but I can't. My life has been in an absolute stand still and the most ironic thing is this is more than likely the prime of my life, a time where i'm in education and don't have to grind and a job and yet I am still unhappy and unfulfilled. I am at the end of the road and don't know how i can continue on this planet anymore. I'm not dead but i'm not living.

This is not a suicide note, rather an update of why I am not going to be around on discord anymore. I have realized i have been using it as an escapist coping mechanism. either I am going to accomplish my goals (unlikely) or increase my alcohol intake to the point of not caring about it anymore.

I will be updating this page with future posts when i feel like it. getgle is now my personal blog. I have legitimately become feral and i have not showered for weeks. i am living in hell and it will only get worse from here 5/9/2020

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